My greatest foe: The internet

The title kinda says it all. The internet has lead to me looking like a complete jackass so many times. If not for the fact that is an inanimate entity, I would actually have believed that I had wronged it in a past life. There have been so many incidents where I have ended up with my foot in my mouth, in a manner of speaking, due to incidents which took place on.....wait for it....the internet. A scrap on orkut that no one was supposed to see, which not everyone saw but was seen by the one person who should not have seen it under any circumstances. A blog post which was intended as a joke, which was interpreted as the gravest of insults by someone who had been mentioned in it. Status messages, which were just supposed to sound cool, and dark, and foreboding, which just led to my mom scolding me like hell, saying "Are you some kind of death obsessed psycho freak job?", not the exact words but you get the idea.

The above are a few incidents which led to direct repercussions, there are so many that had side effects which were less than desirable. So many times you start talkin to someone and you have this nice feeling inside that maybe this can grow into a nice friendship or somethin like that. After a few days you start talkin to the aforementioned person wholeheartedly and you realize that they are paying as much attention to you as someone would devote to listening to an ode to a slab of concrete that they found one day in their parking lot. Thats when you start thinking about all the negative crap in the world and suddenly you find yourself depressed.

My usual approach to this kinda thing is to instantly delete the contact from my chat list, and from my phone contacts list. 

My reasoning being as follows, if you dont have their contact info anymore then you wont try to contact them and have them not respond making you look like nothing more than  a pathetic loser. My reasoning has been working pretty fine till date. You wouldnt believe the number of times this has happened to me.

One of my good friends/worst foes told me once that I was fantastic at making friends, but I sucked at keeping them. Since I never took the time to talk to them afterwards and so on. This got me thinking, am I simply doing what people do to me? since no one talks to me after the initial few chats,I go and do the same when it comes to friends I make. Its kinda weird, in a karmic sorta way.

However, one thing was put to me today by someone I know, I was told that it is not proper to ask a girl out on a simple walk, after you've known her for half an hour maybe. It doesn't matter what your intentions are the girl is still gonna think you are a freak. By the term 'Girl' here I am referring to those of the feminine gender who are not as loose as the lid on my ketchup bottle, how loose is that? Well, suffice to say that I now have a red T shirt and just lost a white one.

After thinking about what she said, I realized that she was right. Of course with this realization came the feeling of unbelievable stupidity. However, I have resolved to never try the "hey wanna come for a walk ?" thing ever again. If I wanna go for a walk, I'll go, spend some time alone with my thoughts and come to new and more frightening realizations about the world I live in.

Its a weird life, but its all I've got.

peace.