About this and that

ahoy there.. 

I like that word, Ahoy, its fancy..maybe that is due to its marine origins..I dont know..

this ones gonna be about my fear of not getting a job.

I came to the US to do my MS, and in my spare time I started playing in a band, things were looking great, but then the hard times hit, and we lost a drummer and the vocalist.

For once I wish I could have arrived on the scene after the bleak months had passed, and everything was all spring like and cheerful again, but I suppose that would be a lot to ask for. That would be like asking for the gain without the pain or something along those lines..and now that we are having so much trouble finding a drummer, I ask myself is there some cosmic law which states that no more than a few indians can ever make it on the rock scene. If there is some such law, then I would have to say that the cosmos is a bloody racist. 

ANyway, now that the goin has become tough, the bass player is thinkin bout callin it quits and so am I, but no one believes me when I saY im gonna quit. Its kinda funny, when I was back in cochin, and I used to tell my friend Vinay that I was gonna quit the band thing and stop doin the music thing, he would say "Yea, sure you are" since he had heard me say the same damn thing so many times before.

However this time around, I think this might be it for me as far as my musical aspirations are concerned. I dont know if im gonna be sad, I mean, its going to be a shocker of course since for so long I had refused to give up hope that there might be something musical in store for me as far as my career was concerned. Quitting this band is going to be like admitting that was nothing but a dream. I mean, I came to the frikkin US and im playin in a band here, with all whites, how much closer can an indian guitarist come to making it big on the rock scene? I dont think much closer. However, even given this proximity to my dreams, I feel them getting farther away.

Therefore, the time for me to make my choice is coming soon.

not much else to add in this post..

later

magus.