stand..

there are many kinds of people in the world.. and we all try to live life as we see fit.. as far as im concerned i have always tried to be a good person...a good human human being.. and i know for a fact that im not wicked, twisted, weird or anything...this knowledge gives me great comfort..
however somethin i've been thinkin bout recently.. can anyone be happy bein good if no one acknowledges that goodness? I honest to god dont know..
in my case, my folks and lil bro stand witness to my character..and so do a few good friends...stress on the "few"... and occasionally seeing the way in which they regard me...it feels good..
feels frikkin amazin actually..
removed from them....far away here...im findin it harder and harder to validate myself..and that has always been an issue with me..
and recently, someone actually had the temerity to give me atitude about me trying to chat to them on the net... the excuse bein "I dont chat...so leave me alone ok?"...not that i was snoopin but multiple people told me that the person in question was big on chatting...
so what do i infer from this? the person dont wanna talk to me..? thats perfectly fine..i have no problem with that..what i do have a problem with is the way in which the feeling was conveyed..if you have a problem with someone, at least have the decency to come out and tell them straight out so that they dont go on believing that nothins wrong...
civility and decency are two traits which are disappearing in todays world..they are almost gone....even people who have a lil bit of these hide em coz they r embarassed about the fact that no one else has these...
its funny..after coming here..no group of people have shocked me more than those from my own country.. the darkness within them is deep and calm like the undisturbed surface of a great lake..
there are some of them whom i like a lot...and who are decent guys...
but the majority...sigh...
is it any wonder that there are so many laughable things about indians..?
well i refuse to be grouped along with a race that seems intent on self destruction....
so where does that leave me? I'm just a good human being....nothin more, but definitely nothin less...so there..

nrv.