Vindicated..

There is a feature which I try to put into most of my posts, I do not know if I have been successful in it. I try to start off each post by mentioning the song I am listening to while writing it. At the moment I am listening to the song vindicated by the band dashboard confessional. For an alternate rock/Sissy wimpy rock band....they have done a pretty amazing job with this song. The lyrical quality is outstanding and can actually be likened to poetry which is much more than what can be said about music in general these days (hip hop anyone?).

In my opinion the song talks about life and its related insecurities in general though it does this from a slightly romantic perspective. The first line of the song goes "Like hope dangles on a string like slow spinning redemption, winding in, winding out, the shine of it has caught my eye"...pure poetry and nothing else.
The chorus goes as follows,
"Vindicated,
I am selfish I am wrong
I am right I swear I am right
I swear I knew it all along
and I am flawed
but I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
the things you swore you saw yourself..."

beautiful aint it?

Right now I am working on an internship in Jacksonville, Florida. Yeah, I finally managed to get one and I am so damn happy. Except for the last part of the previous sentence everything in this post has been completely true. I am not so damn happy, in fact I am not even any kind of happy.
The work is commonplace and extremely boring and most of the time my employers dont seem to know what to do with me which in itself is quite worrying. There was a career fair in our university recently and I went for it thinking about somehow getting a better and more interesting job.
Every single company I went to had the same frikkin reply "Hey, yeah, give us your resume, but also apply online ok? We are not saying that this was a completely pointless waste of your time but if you cant figure that one out yourself then we were not gonna hire you anyway....so, have a nice day...and here take some free goodies which are actually various somethings which were lying around in our homes and which we could not get rid of in any other way"
long sentence?
you should've seen the length of the queues...
The only redeeming part about the day was....oh wait there was none...
So many people dressed up in their finest, waiting in queue holding on to a piece of paper in which they have tried to sum up their knowledge in as few a number of lines as possible (in many cases coming up with interesting and wildly inappropriate abbreviations). The air was crackling with the energy of their hopes and dreams and the dry responses from the employers shooting down the aforementioned hopes and dreams.
My abbreviations were cool too, I had lines in my resume which read,
Proficient with CRAP (Commercial regression advance planning)
Well versed in NOTHING (New order of theoretic hyper imaging neo genesis)
and also
Certified master of bullshit-jutsu!! (now that one I just made up now...)

For those "critics" among you who point out that I did not include the second 'o' in the abbreviation NOTHING, guys, seriously????

The day was extremely disappointing...and so were the two days after that when I had to return to work, get shunted off from a project since I had done something completely different from what they had asked me to do, get explanations from both the supervisor and the CEO about how "your work was good, great vision and excellent quality, we're just gonna go a different direction on this one...ok?". Doesn't that last line sound weirdly similar to "Its not you, its me..." probably the most cliched break up line ever...
and guess what....after tomorrow I get to go back to another week of that amazing life...yea...wow..cant hardly wait..

more cynical than ever,

magus.