nostalgia..

Nostalgia's a weird thing dont you think? I mean we hear so many proverbs and other wise sayings to the effect of "Go forward, dont look back" and yet when we do turn around and take a few glances what we see always makes us feel.....well....for lack of a better word, weird. Just the other day I was talking to this one acquaintance of mine from back in the day (wow, i always wanted to use that expression 'back in the day'. makes me feel like an ol' timer...yee haw!! crap..i think I really miss Florida...) and it was real nice.

I use nice to sum up the conversation since it defines the overall nature of the way things went. Was it completely smooth? Well, mostly, but there were a few points at which I was like "oh kay..what to say now?..how bout 'hey did you hear bout that dude who got his new console? It is sweeeeet!!' or ' zen has always held a dear place in my mind. What about you?' or 'eehh.....whats up doc?' see, by now I am totally clutching at straws.. (The straws make a mysterious appearance yet again..coincidence or conspiracy..stay tuned to find out....for those of you heretics who dont read my blog, the straws were mentioned in the last post, hence the terribly funny joke in the previous line..). However, heres the funny thing, anytime this came up, instantly some recollection wandered into the conversation and it instantly became a jaunt down memory super highway (yea, I decided to call it super highway instead of memory lane, so sue me..)

It was really nice to talk about so many things that happened back then. When we were younger we had a totally fresh and uncomplicated way of looking at things and even though this might not have been the most efficient thing to do, it was certainly fun. Its like, when you come home from school all tired and stuff and all you have to worry about is whether you are going to play that new game you installed on the pc or watch that new show about mutant mice riding on harleys (the mice are from mars by the way.....why are they from mars? ask the fox network...i have no clue). Looking back I can sense an inherent simplicity in those acts which is lost on everything I do these days.

Maybe it is the natural order of things simple first complex later and then simple again and then completely absent. One might notice that I have likened the complexity of the events to the stages of man.

It was nice catching up with this one person, and I intend to keep the contact alive as far as I can.

As far as all other things are concerned I am havin a nice time back home, learning a lot of web development related stuff and also been messing around with a few music ideas.

If someone came and asked me whether I have any idea as to where I am headed, I would stare blankly at him and then shake my head with no expression on my face. I have not the slightest inkling of an idea as to where im going but maybe most people dont either. Maybe its the ones who are so sure of their path that are the most conflicted inside. This is merely speculation not expressed desire, I would not wish conflict on anyone.

Magus.