recovery swing

So, yea im still here...
that "event" which nearly took me out has passed and once again im fine....
yes, when i pass my hand over my chest the scar is still felt, but in time even that will wash away,
nothing is permanent except change itself...
right now, so many of the things i used to do seem so stupid, the whining, the complete destruction of my self respect and so many other things....
two things which can make a man shed his dignity ,
1.alcohol
2.a girl.
the whole truth mes amigos...
and as far as the commitment thing goes....i've got this friend whos got a gal, and they make a really cute pair....everything is kinda workin out for them,,
but then i find myself thinkin, what does my friend think about all the time, why does he look like hes carrying the world's weight on his skinny shoulders and i get it....
hes worried bout the future....
i mean yea, all of us are a bit worried bout whats comin up, but its a general sorta worry,
in his case hes worried bout how hes gonna broach the subject of his gal to his folks, bout how hes gonna make enuf money to stand on his own feet, and a whole lotta other things all connected to the relationship...so are relationships bad??
no, they're great, if you're sure you've had enough of living wild and freeand realise that the time has come for you to start taking responsibility....
as for me,
all im sayin is,
BEEN THERE, DONE THAT, ITS OVER-RATED!!
im waitin.....once i can stand on my own, mebbe then,
who knows bout how its gonna happen, mebbe a chance meetin at the office, at the coffee place, at a club,
i mean, who knows???
i for one am gonna wait and find out...i think its gonna be worth it in the end...
till later then,
peace out,,