still here

the title is kinda weird but , ah well what the hell...right?
but it is relevant in one way...things keep changin around you but ur still there...
within ur mind nothins changed and ur still the same person but all around you time flows on..
peoples faces, their voices, their behaviour everything is a variable....constantly evolving ..
evolution of behaviour is of course a question of perspective....some might say that a more apt term would be degradation of behaviour...
i for one would advocate selective use of either word..
these days in college are turning out to be quite different from what im used to...
i;ve lost one of my closest friends, a person upon whom i used to depend a lot to get thru each and every day in coll....
i spose i leaned on her a lil too much that i drove her away...anyway thats all history now..
so when i was lost and broken i found solace where i least expected it....my class...
i never actually knew anyone from my class since i never felt the urgency to mingle, i kinda always had the impression that i had her to lean on...but once that slot opened up..
i started talkin to my mates and found out more bout them...
i started feelin much more connected to them than ever before and it felt great...
i dont know whether they felt the same and i don wanna know..
all i know is, they were there for me when i needed them the most, so heres to my batch..
i wish i'd taken the time to know you guys much better but now im gonna make the most of what time i have left...
so on the whole, yea this was one helluva random post, but , well thats me....a random kinda guy...
peace out.
later...
The kid

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so, whats been happenin with you people...
havent really been in the loop for quite some time now...
had one of those huge eye opening experiences recently and am still assimilating the info i gained from it...
while im on that heres another interesting side thought,
you want something real bad but on the side you know that this very thing is quite bad for you in some way or the other....at first you find it real hard to "get" the thing, but then finally one day when it is put in front of you ....do you just go ahead and grasp it, or do you make the mature decision and stay away....
if you take some time to actually think bout this decision making process, you will come to the realisation that most of us go about our lives having to make such difficult choices now and then.
What comes out of it?? well,
you can live on past one of these choices and reflect on how what you did was the right thing to do...or you can whine for everyone to hear about how you made the wrong choice, either way a lot of reflection is involved....
and even as far as friends go...
its amazing how much some of them can hurt you in certain situations.....but equally amazing is how much some of them can help when you're down on the ground bleeding....
i still dont know if anyone actually reads my blog, my guess is , no...
but if neone does then listen to this....
three cheers to my "friend",
he helped me through some of the darkest times in my life...
certain times it seemed so damn pointless to go on since everything was grey but this guy jus called me up and scolded me, yea thats right, scolded the hell outta me....
and so, dude, you know who you are :)....thanks for saving me....will try to return the favor someday....
so, what is the secret of a good friendship??
unless you're 100% sure bout the person, dont become too close,
the closer you get the more of your shields you are letting down and the harder you could get hit..
and oh yea, never ever make best friends...!! never ever works out!!
so on that neutral thought i'll end this one....
untill later,
cheerio.