back again

hello again everyone...
its been a bit since i put in a post but thats coz i was havin my internal exams in coll...
somethin really weird happened...
recently, i'd done this grave blooper by means of which a friend o mine ended up gettin big time banged up (not in the physical sense...)
and as a result of this, the friendship is sinking right now, and theres nothing i can do about it..
i guess all i CAN do is get up, dust myself off and move on....
neway, comin back to the main thought stream, so since i knew i had done a bad thing, i was feeling big time sorry, and so i decided that i wasnt gonna study for a single exam durin my internals...
i thought that i would bomb in every single one for sure, but god had otherplans..
he carried me through each and every exam, and even though i aint gonna be toppin ne classes, at least i aint gonna be at the bottom....
and this "thing" ....gave me an entire new perspective....
if what i've done is truly so terrible, would he have helped me...i dontthink so...
and so i'd like to believe that he has forgiven me...even though i am yet to forgive myself...
more on this later/....
i'll tell ya bout the friend i lost....
peace out..